Why Trust is my 2018 word
by: sarah elizabeth dilworth
Hey Hey Hey!!
(First, I totally want to thank one of my BFF's for this wonderful opportunity!)
Sooooo, for awhile now I've struggled with something I think a lot of us struggle with, without even realizing it!
Now let me tell you why I've struggled. These past two years for me have been really, well, hard!
One of the main reasons being, every time I put in a Job Application I felt like I failed because each time, no callback. Now I'm sure for most people, this is probably expected, normal even. But for me, I had only worked with my dad up until literally 20! So I wasn't expecting to not get a callback (not that I was overly confident, because honestly, I was worried) but because I honestly just didn't! Especially not from all three. Well, let me tell you, I decided to try one more time this past summer (At a place that I had loved for so long). I had known they were hiring for a few weeks and I remember telling myself "If I don't get this one, then I'm just not meant to continue to put myself out there right now."
Didn't get that job.
And goodness gracious did I cry one good time. I was so broken, so hurt. I asked God so many times, "What's wrong with me? Why won't you let me get these jobs? Not even one? Why?"
Well at the time, I was OBSESSED with Lauren Daigle's song Trust In You, (do yourself a favor and listen to this song... it's da best!!) And I didn't even know how much that song would mean to me in the very near future.
At 5:00 pm on Tuesday, October 24th, 2017 I received a call from this weird number I oddly remember seeing before, but if you know me then you know I really honest and truthfully dislike talking on the phone. I find it uttermost awkward and I'd prefer if someone just texts me instead! But I also had a voicemail. So I, of course, decide to listen to that voicemail.
"Hello this is (managers name) calling from Altar'd State and I was wondering if you wanted to come in for a group interview tomorrow at 3:00."
Y'all, I FLIPPED!!
I literally yelled across the house to my mom telling her "ALTAR'D STATE CALLED ME BACK, MOM I GOT A CALLBACK!!" And my mom, being the level-headed, lovely women that she is, she calmly, yet excitedly said: "Call them back!" So duh, I did, as nervous as I was I did!
The next day I was a nervous wreck. I had my resume all printed out in the cutest folder from Target clutched in my hand as I walked into the store at 2:27. (I know, super early, right?) First of all, I had never had an interview before, let alone a group interview? No way did I think I was going to do good, AT ALL. I go in and let one of the associates know I'm there for the group interview and she let one of the managers know. He came out and led me to the back and into the office. Meanwhile, my mind is a wreck, my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest, and I wanted to run out and cry. I was so nervous,
I was so worried.
I sat down on the chair after greeting her, and she told me to wait a second so she could see if the girl I was interviewing with was on her way. I'm sitting there trying to read over my resume last minute to make sure I even did that right. She comes in and tells me she cancelled and so I would be interviewing alone (Y'ALL THAT DID NOT HELP MY HEART AT ALL).
I became a little more confident, thanking God that I didn't have to do a group interview simply because I knew I would be overtalked (I'm extremely quiet and very easily overtalked). And so the interview began!
I'm going to be completely honest, I stuttered, I took a while to answer some of the questions and like I said before, I was a wreck. Yet, at the end of the interview, she looked me straight in the eyes and let me know I had the job, ON THE SPOT Y'ALL.
on the spot!
I almost starting crying right then and there, I was so happy I didn't even know what to say. I told her thank you so much about 100 times and then apologized for being overly excited. She, being the sweetheart that she is, told me she was so happy for me.
Okay, so this is the best part.
I walked out of the store and guess what was playing loudly throughout the store? Trust In You by Lauren Daigle. For months y'all, that had been my song.
That morning my Bible fell open to Isaiah 40:31,
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary, and they shall walk, and not faint. "
This had been my verse for about two years now, and that song and verse go hand in hand. In order to wait on God, we have to trust Him (though at times it's the hardest thing in the world to us) we have to.
He only works for our good.
And this year I can't wait to see what He's going to do in my life and where He's going to take me as I Trust in Him